9/26/10

"Hello, you.

I have so much to say, and yet only a lifetime to say it. My hand will start aching very shortly, so we must begin!

Who am I? I am me. I wear tie-dye pants and I have a garden. I hate my dad, & I don't know why. Perhaps it's because he made me this. Lately, I have discovered that everything I really want in life – everything I ever needed – was right in front of me when I was little, and for some reason I let it go. I used to want to be a math teacher, and I used to swim, and I used to be me. Then somebody told me I had ADD, that somehow I was special, and it was know I was special that made me want to be the same. I was not pressured. I was compelled. It was the worst thing that ever happened to me.

Of course, I am me now, and I am happy with me, so whatever events transpired to make this happen must have not been too bad. There have been some bumps along the road. Last month I flew across the country to tell the women I loved that I loved her. She said that she no longer had feelings for me. I had hoped to remain friends; alas, the world doesn't work that way. I'm done fitting molds though. I have moved on to someone new, someone who's favorite movie is Mulan and someone who thinks a zombie apocalypse would be great.

I hope that you find the courage to be yourself, to move on, to take life slow. Plant something. It's soothing, really, and it doesn't take a lot of work. Plus, if you plant a vegetable, you get to eat it later. You get to eat something that you grew.

Oh, and please, tell someone that you love them. It really does mean something.

Sincerely,
Me

P.S. I'm thinking about shaving my head."